Oops, I Thought I Died.

Wow, two whole weeks with nary a blog post. I suck. There was a time when I thought I could post everyday. And the number of visitors was really beginning to climb towards the end of that short lived experiment. It was kind of exciting. One thing about Blogger that I love is that bar across the very top. If you click 'next blog' it will take you to another blog on the Blogger network. But! It favors recently updated blogs. So the more often you post the more often random visitors get sent to your blog. And it's not at all hard to see that sometimes those random visitors like enough what they see to come back later for more. And so, the more you post the more visitors you get.

So why so few posts?

My life is really mellow. I enjoy it: its pleasant, fulfilling, and largely absent any immediate or unruly turmoil. But I wonder... without any real rollercoaster of emotion to ride, without any challenges (ie challenges where the possibility of failure is truly real), without drama, am I left empty of inspiration? But then, I still feel like I'm on shaky ground. I guess it doesn't affect me like it may have in the past.

I've been fine tuning this idea for a movie and its come to a point now where I must actually get out there and film some of it. Once finished I'd like to show it down in Ybor soon, probably early March. I'm gonna take the one-time Saturday class so that I can do some work for Habitat for Humanity in the future. Class is going really great. Three of them consist almost entirely of reading the material for the week and then sitting in class and hashing out the subtleties of the material with classmates. It's becoming clear to the point of excess that I am not a historian of any kind of traditional bent. A futurist? I guess so. A progressive? You bet. Where so much energy is spent dissecting the past, the question that always lingers in my mind is, What does this say about the future? That's a question that never comes up in the readings or in the class discussions that follow. Questions about the present are the closest we ever get in class, in the topics for papers, or in the assigned books and articles.

Looking back on the past few years, I can see how I have seem to reach a point occassionally where I just want to shake things up to see what happens, and so I do. I play board games the same way. And video games too. And sometimes shamefully, I treat people as though they are factors instead of human beings. I intend to be more mindful of that. At the same time, I think I'd like to shake things up a bit.

Lately, I've been focusing on really trying to get into the mindset that leads to so many Conservative "victories." What is it that makes that mindset appealing to people? Why do they think what they think is so right? Where in the past I would just block it off and be pleased with knowing they were wrong and I was right, I'm now interested in finding what makes them tick. Not so I can dissect it and find the flaws to prove them wrong. It's simply a quest for knowledge, fo a more well-rounded knowledge.

I'm not gonna say more posts are on the way, but yea.. you know. They are on the way.